sometimes, I really wonder if I am what I think I am...do I really have the capabilities and intellect that I think I have, or am I just all a FAKE. I hate it when I can't even meet my own expectations. I always proclaim that exam results do not matter, it's what you've got inside your head that does. but yet again, if it isn't your results that show what you have inside your head, what does? URGH..I hate it when I'm being so petty and narrow-minded about something.
Ian reminded me about something. if everything depends on your own efforts to make it work, won't the world be a really sucky place to live in? why can't i place down my faith fully? hai...respi results...another wake-up call from ABOVE.