I seriously hate being in a crush and not being able to do anything about it. In times like this, my sis will say: this feels very anal. It's a crude way of saying it but it's absolutely true. You really want to do something about the whole situation but yet you can't and have to refrain yourself. The worst part is, you come to realization that he's most probably just treating you as a good, NORMAL friend.
Been in a very lackadaisical mood lately...don't really feel like doing anything. Studies are lacking behind like never before. And for no apparent reasons, my mood always seem to be stormy in the mornings. Even without meeting anyone, I can feel really lousy. Wonder what's happening. If this is what love does to you, then I'd rather not be in it. Urgh!! What's happening?? God, help...

thank God for friends. The ball was great with them around. I really don't think the whole event was just about drooling over pretty girls and guys. Compliments to stoner Tim for being the MC with a weird sense of humour. And also to lavinia, jeng, carrie and the fat family for doing a superb job with 'outkast'. CHIA MING...the guy with the boyband voice who ended up having to sing Foo Fighters. But still...good job with the BIG BANG FINISH. Starbucks after the whole thing was sweet. Everyone walking in couples with the girls clinging on to their partners. Reminds me about primary school though when girls&guys had to line up in 2 lines. Couldn't believe the guys all went to dye their hair when all i did was put some wax on mine. Another memorable event in the mundane life of IMU...
I hate being in a crush. I don't mind people having a crush on me, but I hate to have it myself. Makes you have mood swings which are totally childish and unnecessary. Besides, it makes you go weak in your rational judgement and you lose your ability to just treat everyone as a normal friend. Sometimes I think I'll never get attached.

sometimes, I really wonder if I am what I think I am...do I really have the capabilities and intellect that I think I have, or am I just all a FAKE. I hate it when I can't even meet my own expectations. I always proclaim that exam results do not matter, it's what you've got inside your head that does. but yet again, if it isn't your results that show what you have inside your head, what does? URGH..I hate it when I'm being so petty and narrow-minded about something.
Ian reminded me about something. if everything depends on your own efforts to make it work, won't the world be a really sucky place to live in? why can't i place down my faith fully? hai...respi results...another wake-up call from ABOVE.

In this world, only the following combinations exist:
i. pretty girl + good-looking guy
ii. pretty girl + ugly guy
iii. ugly girl + ugly guy

There is absolutely no way you can find the combination of ugly girl + good-looking guy. If anyone out there knows of such a couple, do let me know. Which brings to the point, does testosterone actually make you more light-headed while judging a person?